Up & Down

Well, the last three days, for whatever reason, have been a downer. Spurts of sadness and crying at the office while working away. Maybe it's the pictures of you around me that get the waterworks going. It hurts right now just thinking about you...God I miss you!!!!---and here go the waterworks.

Remembering

Just a few notes today about the things I miss daily:

Having you wake me in the morning, standing next to our bed and just smiling.

Drawing the smiley face on the steamed shower wall, adding the ears, arms, legs at your request.

You helping me put on my belt...through all the hoops.

Putting on my chap stick and *trying* deodorant.

Hearing your voice on the phone while I'm at work, telling mommy "it's for me, it's daddy".

Seeing you on the corner as I rode my bike home, waiting for me on your bike or scooter to race to the driveway...you always won!

Having you run into my arms when I arrive home after work for a big hug.

Chasing you up the stairs to my closet to change for the evening.

You trying to put your finger in my belly-button, chasing me around the room.

Helping me water the garden, and picking the tomatoes.

Giving you bath, when you would let me.

Brushing your beautiful hair.

Helping you pick out your night time snack.

Snuggling on the couch before you go to sleep.

Reading you a story, when you would let me.

Kissing you on the forehead and tucking you in before I went to sleep.

---repeat 1588 times...

Getting started...

Well *Tini*...I'm having a hard time getting this blog to you started--but here goes. So many things I want to write about. As I wanted to say, but did not, at the funeral (3-weeks ago today), it'll take me 4 yrs, 4 mo, and 8 days to write down all I want to say to and about you. You've been a great blessing to us for that time period, and even longer. I want to write about: the good times, the sorrow I feel, the anger, the support, the future, your sister, your mother, your family, your freinds and much much more. As I pray to you daily, I hope you hear us and will watch over us for etenity.
Dad

Day 15 w/o You

Christine,
As you've seen from heaven, we've missed you very much and we are so sad to lose you.
Dad