Reading December 2005

I 'tried' to read the postings from three years ago on the day that they occurred...but that did not happen. I did read all the posts ... just at different times. Caught up with Dec '05 yesterday...some hard things to read for sure. I went into this 're-read' with a very open mind, thinking it would be an easy read...come on, three years have past. Well, it's a bit harder to recall those memories/feelings than I originally thought. The pain is still sharp when reminded of the loss...it is a different view I take of the pain now that three years have past and I know I'm not the only parent who has lost a child...my perspective is new, my awareness is better, but the pain remains.
Time does not heal, it is what we do with the time that begins to heal the broken heart...and my time spent in prayer, my time spent in Church...my time with God has been the healer...and no one else. Others may say they know, but they do not...and I pray that they do not ever know. As a friend said in a card, 'keep the faith'...and that's what I intend to do as I continue to read the postings of January 2006 now.